Tuesday, January 12, 2016
Okay. I think you get it now.
But after months and months of not knowing what I wanted Zephyr to say or want, I think I've finally FINALLY figured it out!
I will admit it. I am a little mean. I wasn't trying to be mean but I didn't have any idea how I wanted it to go.
So, scratch that, I did, but something got in the way. Zephyr got in the way.
From the beginning, I always knew that I wanted Zephyr to emerge on his own, to have his own book. I wanted everyone to meet Zephyr and I wanted everyone to understand him. So of course that meant ZEPHYR GETS HIS OWN BOOK and it just seemed so easy to me. Just give Zephyr his own book, Ness, it's not that hard.
Well, it was a little hard for me.
And I don't want anyone to take this as an excuse but only an explanation.
Writing isn't my day job. I wish it was. I wish it was the only thing I did all day, every single day of my life. I wish that the only thing I had to do was create stories and share them with the world. I wish that so much.
But it's not.
I have a full time job in a store.
And don't get me wrong. People can write and have full time jobs where they interact with people. IT CAN BE DONE! But I couldn't make it work for me. I tried. I'm still trying.
At this job of mine (It's at a Home Depot, by the way. I actually like my current position but I'll explain in a bit, hold on), I started at a cashier. A regular, part-time cashier. There's a story that lead me there, but you don't need to know that. I stayed a cashier for a year (almost to the day) and then went to customer service.
Now, you noticed I've gone dark in the past few months. Let me explain: Customer Service (or Special Services as it's known there) is kind of soul-sucking. Not for everyone, but for me. It was giving me a lot of stress and I couldn't cope with it, I couldn't think of anything other than that job and all the issues with the job to the point where I was crying. Trust me, I was a joy for my boyfriend. I couldn't focus on anything but myself and my needs for a while, so I shut off. I unpublished the Facebook page, I took PF and BR down (I think, I'm still not sure) and I didn't focus on Zephyr.
Zephyr was still there in my mind, I was thinking of what Zephyr wanted the entire time, but he was in hiding. That is the best way to say that, actually, Zephyr was afraid of me. And I'll give him that one because I was afraid. I was afraid I wouldn't give Zephyr what he wanted. Let's be honest, I didn't know what he wanted.
Now I do.
Now he's emerged and he's talking a bit and I am going to get it all down.
I still have my full time job, but I'm not doing special services anymore, I'm doing something I love at Home Depot, something that perks me up. It still stresses me out but not so much that I can't focus on Zephyr and Joey.
So Completely Destroyed is happening. WE HAVE LIFT OFF, PEOPLE!
I'll get back to you soon. Let me get a couple chapters out, first.
As for if PF and BR are going back up... Well, let me get CD and TD done. Then we'll talk.
Thanks for reading.
Tuesday, October 21, 2014
I've been a little busy with my day job and I've kept everyone in the dark. But today, I release some news that I've been chewing on lately.
A few weeks back, I think I tweeted about this idea, but I'm not sure how many of y'all are on that, following me. So I'll just blog about it:
I know I mentioned that the Flawed Series is going to be four books. It was originally three but something happened in the editing process so I added another. Basically, Beautifully Ruined wasn't supposed to exist. Anyhoo, the thing I've been debating in my mind is the idea of a fifth. I promise it won't be some mean move of me to create more issues with my characters, I don't want to do that to you, but I want to tell Completely Destroyed through another perspective because a lot would be left out if I only did one.
Now, I really hope to release these very close together. And you'd see why when Completely Destroyed is out.
I'm just going to leave you with that as I go back into my cave.
Just remember, extra book, added information--it's coming for you.
Wednesday, August 6, 2014
Monday, June 16, 2014
But anyway, someone brought it up: You should have a newsletter just in case we forget we're waiting.
And while I thought about it before, this person made a good point. I don't want y'all to forget (add in: because I'm slow with writing). But I don't want to constantly, like, pester y'all with things of no importance. So.... the best thing to do is to somehow create a newsletter.
Now, how are you going to do that, self? I'm glad you asked that, self. I haven't any idea. I mean, I could just ask for everyone who is interested's email, create an email group, and just send out updates. Or, I could find something on the internet that is more private. But I did a quick Google search and nothing showed up. So I'm thinking of going with the first one.
But that brought up another question. How can I do it and keep their email private? Now, that is a problem. I don't have a little box for y'all to input email. I don't want anyone to start using your email and signing y'all up for stupid, pointless things as a joke (trust me, one subscription to a porn site is enough to make me delete my college email because I was dumb enough to post my email address on a forum. Never again) and I don't want any of you to have to deal with that. So I'm going to look for something for y'all to import an email address if you are interested in a newsletter.
I want to keep you updated because you are all so important to me. You read my books. I have so much appreciation for you, I can't even describe it in words.
So I'm going to do that, and y'all are going to have to a wait a little bit longer (I'm sorry :( )
But other than that, have a great day!
Friday, April 18, 2014
I didn't change anything major. There are no plot changes. Maybe a few additions of dialogue I thought I put in the original. But really, no one is missing much in the new version.
The only major change that anyone will notice is the chapter formats.
As all who read it would have noticed, the chapters were long. Originally, when righting, there were over fifty chapters. I just decided to combine them and got it down to twenty plus a prologue and epilogue. Now there are fifty-four chapters and a prologue. The epilogue is now chapter fifty-four because I felt it would have been wrong to place an epilogue in Perfectly Flawed when that story line doesn't actually end until Beautifully Ruined.
Speaking of: I will begin editing Beautifully Ruined tonight and try to get it done by the end of the week. But I said that three weeks ago about Perfectly Flawed and you see how well I do with deadlines.
So, to wrap this baby up, Beautifully Ruined will not have a prologue, that chapter will just be one. But it will have the epilogue. I really hope I can have it out by the end of next week or maybe the end of two weeks but I'm starting a new job soon and my time might be a little limited.
OH! And before I forget. This might be a little dumb!!! I don't care, I'm released Perfectly Flawed and Beautifully Ruined in one binding, one book, one giant page thing, I don't know the proper terminology. I am doing this because they were originally one book. This was supposed to be three books but I have a length issue and chopped off the end. (sorry). So I want to do that.
Okay. I'm going to shut up now. I'm sure most of y'all didn't really care that much. But I just want to keep y'all updated.
Hmmmmm... what else? Uh, got myself a Facebook page if y'all haven't noticed. Uh, I update my twitter the most, I would update my Facebook more but I feel I need more people before I start spamming walls. And now I'm done.
Have a good night. Have a good holiday. Have a good weekend. (I think that covers it)
Thursday, April 3, 2014
I've been a little lazy lately but that isn't what this is about:
Trust me, I read the comments and reviews and I can't even count have many have been sold but I gear you, I see them, and I promise to go over Flawed and Ruined with a fine toothed comb.
I honestly thought I got all the typos but I'm a little weird and overlook things.
I hope to have them all out and I apologize for them because you shouldn't have to read them and I jumped the gun.
But I hear you and I'm promising to do something :) thank you for the feedback and for reading this (and another apology, while I'm at it, if this sounds rude. I'm just letting you know my plan).